The heart, our biggest strength, yet our biggest weakness

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I have no idea what this is and to be quite honest I don't really care

It was my birthday this week, I was 22

Got the usual questions, like, so you going out to get drunk this weekend I suspect Craig?

Of course I say, well i'm not sure, no plans yet but i'm sure I will....

And then I just want to scream of course I'm fucking not you stupid idiot, when the fuck did I come across to you as someone approaching normal!?! I don't do normal stuff alright so go fuck off and ask conversational questions to someone who can give you interesting answers

Who do you think I'm going to go out with exactly? Have I mislead you into thinking I have these hoards of friends that I keep in a box to be brought out on such occasions?

I can't even put together a group of people to be "friends" with on facebook for christ sake!

If i'm really lucky it will coincide with my sisters charity work and she can invite me to the cinema, yeah that will do my self esteem no end of good

But other than that I'm bloody chipper mate, top of the fucking world!

Hands up who thinks I'm cool now

I feel so much better worse now

and I don't actually care what anyone thinks of it

when actually I care a hell of a lot and I'll laugh off this whole thing if anyone questions me on it, while striking my usual blushing and slightly sweat doused pose, but even if nothing is said my overwhelming paranoia will go to work on your behalf

I've survived my lonesome life for quite a while now so its all gravy baby